hills and valleys

its crazy how aware i am of the ups and downs of this.

 yesterday was a treat. felt ok, then NOT ok, ok, NOT, ok NOT

today i woke up and felt pretty good.

until about 9:30.   then i started to feel hungry, or something like that , and went pee for the 6 time today.

at about 10 am I ate my mid morning snack.  [ 1/2 avacado]

and now i feel like death. tired, heavy, hot. almost weak.

and I have to poo. again.

did I mention hot?

 i am hot hot hot right now.

None of this is meant to sound negative. I am happy. although i would like to be in bed, or on my couch.  my mood is good. maybe a bit slow, and heavy,  but not in a bad mood at all.