MIXED EMOTIONS

i am all over the place.

happy - I am home. after spending all day going to various grocery stores and the farmers market I am super frustrated with everything and am not going out again today

not happy - i didn't get everything i needed. I forgot a jacket potato. like you would use to make a baked potato

happy - i bought cheese. today ends my vegan-ism and moves me to the vegetarian side of things tomorrow. however its blue cheese and goat cheese only. Velveeta is apperantly not really even cheese. haha

not happy - three tiny pieces of cheese cost me $21. and I realize now that i put back a big piece of blue cheese for a smaller one because I asked how long it would last and she said a week. so i figured i didn't want to throw out blue cheese, so i got a smaller different kind, which i see now was $3.50 more than the big one i put back. DUH!

happy - i tasted the blue cheese and like it. strong! but i like it.

not happy - i haven't pooped today and feel like i should have already

happy - I have lost 3 - 5 lbs already.   i ballpark because i didnt know my exact weight before..but definately at least 3 lbs,  maybe as much as 5 lbs.   Yay me.

happy - i get bread tomorrow!  its spelt bread though. so dunno if it is going to satisfy me the way a big baggette dipped in oil and vinegar would.

not happy. - no yummy snacks. i like snacking. i dont get to snack. sigh

happy.and not happy -  i have been having wicked sleeps lately. except last night i had a dream my finger was going to fall off, and my ring was cutting of circulation and had to be surgically removed. and my finger hurt and hurt and hurt.  and i woke up this am and see that my ring is on my nightstand.  which means my finger was hurting and it woke me enough for me to remove my ring and place it on the nightstand.

happy - my neighbor is taking Luna for a walk/run sometimes. she needs the exercise. even if my neighbor is super weird. she is currently off with him. hope she comes back exhausted.

undecided - although this week looks more tasty food wise, its alot more prep work and I am kind of tired of being in the kitchen all the time.

I have an exam on wednesday that I have barely studied for because i lack the know how of actually studying. i rarely did it (studying). i get distracted after 5 min and give up. and i wish i had snacks. feels like I am mostly going to wing it. I am taking wednesday off work. so i will study all day . in theory.... test is in the evening. I will def. be well rested and not have work stresses going in to it. and that alone should help.

there were tonnes of food samples at the farmers market. they all smelled and looked amazing and super delicious.  I had none. NOT HAPPY. (but proud.. of will power... cuz the tarts were calling me... big time..)