what i miss

I am almost done one week of this.  Its hard to believe that I haven't cheated.

OK, i cheated last night.  because I was watching TV [ Survivor] and really wanted something sweet.

so I ate ONE DATE.  as slow as i could.  and then promptly forgot about food altogether.  

But one date isn't a cheat really, although its not listed as an after supper snack, it is listed as part of breakfast.  and so i figured one date would not compromise all i have done this week.

i miss textures mostly.  the food i have been eating is mostly satisfying in the way of fullness. and better than i expected in the way of taste. but lacking in the way of texture and pleasure.. 

there is nothing warm and gooey, like pizza melting. or creamy, like chocolate or ice cream. or just the feel of bread, toast, a pastry.  all those textures are part of the joy of eating those things.  there is nothing crunchy like chips.  and i would forgo the chips just for something to crunch like that in my mouth.  and no a raw carrot is not going to do it.

Lunch is more steamed veggies,  with spiced steamed chick peas.  I get to spice the chick peas with Cumin and pepper,  and those will be the first 2 spices I can use this week.  so far i have only been allowed lemon juice, balsamic vinegar with olive oil, or sunflower oil. 

I am really excited about the CUMIN.  i stuck my nose in it for a whiff this morning, and frankly can barely wait to taste it.

but then i think... mmm cumin...reminds me of indian food. mmmm naan bread, butter chicken, the textures.  and lunch is somewhat less exciting.

Next week i get blue cheese.  I am ok with blue cheese.  i dont love it. dont hate it.  i hope and think on monday at dinner, i will love it, because the taste will be new, and the texture is going to be a twice baked potato.  which might hit the creamy and warm texture feeling.